How do I control my anger before it controls me..
I had always been an angry young lady..But I never(aleast in most cases) expressed it ,other than shutting myself in my room..But these days knowingly or unknowingly,I am reacting,and I don’t like the way it is..How do I tame myself because I am very much aware that words spoken and actions done cannot be taken back..
I may feel angry at a specific person,I may feel angry at some situation happened, I may be feeling angry simply by imagining events that may happen in near future or recalling events that happened in the past..As goes the proverb ‘An idle brain is a devil’s workshop’,I guess I have become more bad since when I started sitting simply at home..’Sitting simply’ doesn’t mean that all my laundry,cooking and housekeeping is done by robots..I do all those stuff,and I have hardly any time at hand and still I feel I am ‘sitting simply’ and that thought makes me angry again..So,there is no reason,except a few hundred ones,that makes me angry..
Expressing anger is very easy..Earlier,it used to be protesting by not studying ,but reading comic books,hidden between text books,and I used to feel content that I protested and won against my mom who ask me to study..Times changed,and I expressed my anger by shutting myslef in my room and listening to music loudly ,when my family asked me to eat good food;again I felt content that the loud noice is a way out from others vocal sounds..Time changed and I started expressing anger by crying..Lots and lots of tears ending up in a local pool..Again,tear glands got bored and isn’t producing any more..Now I see myself behaving baddy by throwing spoons and my baby’s building blocks against wall,whenever I am angry..Eeewww..Why am I behaving like a lady in fish market..I don’t it every now and then..But then again,the interval is being narrowed down day by day..
Suppressing anger is not the way out..
Unexpressed anger can create other problems. It can lead to pathological expressions of anger, such as passive-aggressive behavior (getting back at people indirectly, without telling them why, rather than confronting them head-on) or a personality that seems perpetually cynical and hostile. People who are constantly putting others down, criticizing everything, and making cynical comments haven’t learned how to constructively express their anger. Not surprisingly, they aren’t likely to have many successful relationships.
So,what do I do??
I think I need to gain more spiritual strength..I need to pray regularly..Maybe I need some yoga..
Getting angry doesn’t make things alright,rather it worses matters..and I feel I sholuldn’t have done or said all that happened.When in an angry state of emotion,I jump into conlcusions,which may turn wrong later.I am more of a crappy person now,than I had been earlier..and this thought makes me angry again..