An attempt to learn something new..and share something different

Its been some time ever since I did any tag. and I am not really sure of when will I be able to do another one in near future.Thanks a ton to Nita,my buddy,for tagging me.  I am sorry to my other friends whose tags are in ‘queue’..also,I am sorry to Kanagu for not appreciating his awards,since I ddin’t have a post on it.I value your feelings and I am glad and thankful that I am being remembered,despite being an irregular blogger.. ***end of rant***

Nita’s tag is all about ‘wish-list’. I am not really sure of what is it that I want in my life..I had always been a confused person,an indecisive person who spents time weighing both balances.Thats explains why my ‘About Me ” page is always ‘under construction’..I had always dreamed of making it big in life,but not sure of ‘what,when and how’. Why am I like this,I really don’t know.I had dreamed of becoming a Doctor,but life made me a Software Engineer.Then I wanted to work and build a career and become a CEO who goes to office wearing cotton sarees.But life dumped me into a prestigious university,and asked me to study MBA.Then I started fighting with ‘debit’ ,’credit’ bla bla bla,things of which I had no idea about.. When I fell into the track,I started enjoying the game and gained spirit and courage to fight various commerce subjects..Suddenly I found myself married and then I left my fight with ‘debit’ and ‘credit’ and started fighting with spoons and utensils. I wan in a different world,with my partner and my baby.A couple of years passed,and one fine morning,I found myself confronted with a situation,where I was given a chance to complete my course,which I had dropped due to many technical reasons. I took up the challenge,again,of fighting with ‘debit’ and ‘credit’,and I have no idea how am I going to deal with it,as I had no relation with books,all these years..Still,I will try. . Earlier,going to college is all about waking up just 10 minutes before the bus timing and run to bus stop.But now,I have a baby,lot of other responsibilities,and above all,life has turned more complicated. So…. err,whatz wrong in trying. I have brushed and polished my dreams of becoming a CEO who wears cotton sarees.. I hope God will help me in my way forward,and I expect  your wishes and prayers..

Journey so far has been nice,but there isn’t anything special about it.I thank God for my friends,for there are all what I have earned in my life,till date.I am glad that I discovered the world of blogging,as it had changed the person I am and it opened up a different world for me.But blogging had done only harm in my real-life..How strange..Still,I am glad that I developed a reading habit and also,I realized that I have an opinion too..

Err,am I doing the tag? Nevermind,this is what this Nimmy is all about.There is nothing special about me,to list or elaborate. All I cherish is my dream,the one I am not really sure of.Still I want to become someone who will be remembered,as a daughter,as a wife,as a mother,as a daughter-in-law,as a friend,as …someone ,who touched their lives,and made it special,atleast for a moment.If I am remembered so,I have succeeded.

p.s: I am going to college from next week onwards. Its going to be tough time,be with me….

I am looking back ..at myself.A dear friend of mine have given me a honest feedback and I realized that I went wrong in portraying myself through my words.. I realize that not only am I a pathetic writer, I also gave out wrong message to me readers.. I don’t know how can I erase those prejudices ,caused by my own reasons..

As she told me, whenever I make a comment, I equate it with Pakistan or Islamic jihadists thereby giving out the wrong unintended message that I am talking for them..

NO NO NO NO NO NO NO and NO.I am NOT talking for them..I am least bothered about Pakistan bcoz I have my own nation’s business to mind.. And not only that I hate holy war guys,I am also frustrated enough to blast them the same way as Nassrudhin Shah did it in ‘A Wednesday’.In fact I am so motivated by the movie ,that I am looking for a chance to make a unholy war against those holy war guys..

When I say I hate communal elements as vhp and Dal guys,I hate jihadists who are very much the other side of the same coin.I realize that I went wrong in putting it properly, the intended message.. I am not a good writer..And also,as another dear friend of mine said,I tend to approach things emotionally rather than rationally, that I am burst with emotions and words are flooded away and I end up giving the wrong message..Sorry ..I am never a supporter of bomb blasters in any sense

I need to be more mature in putting up my thoughts and not do it at the spur of a moment.. Words once said can’t be taken back and it takes more effort to erase out the wrong message sent..

Also, I have been thinking why am I so serious these days..I started this blog as a window to vent out some egos and frustrations of mine..lol..Now I think I am more egoistsic and frustrated..Sick..

I hope to have a fresh start. Maybe I need to brush up my cooking posts..Lot of photos waiting in the queue..lol..I am so obsessed with fighting and arguing with others that I am very lazy to divert away from the topic..But I think I need a break..

I am still sure that my intentions were and will always be true and sincere.. But then again,It is a fact that I went wrong in putting it properly.. Jumbled words are more destructive than being constructive in any way..

P.S :

I still stand by what I said, just that I admit that my words went wrong at times..And I’ld say it loud and clear that some of you are angry with me bcoz I talk against Hindu terrorists.. They are the same as bomb blasters and are two sides of the same coin..I’ll speak against them again again and again, in a more effective manner;-)